Medicated Smile

[Verse 1]
Wake up to the red screen glow
Every thought an undertow
Ashtray on the window sill
Breathing in the bitter fill
You joke like everything’s fine
But your hands shake every time
We laugh about the way we cope
Choking on the quiet smoke
[Chorus]
This is my emergency therapy
Dial your number like a remedy
We’re a trauma bond
Tangled and wrong
But you keep me holding on
Holding on
Got a medicated smile for the daylight
Sirens in my chest every midnight
When my head says
“jump
” and I’m breaking at the edge
You talk me off the ledge
[Verse 2]
Couch stains and the ceiling cracks
Trace them just to not relapse
You say
“Tell me where it hurts”
I say
“Everywhere at once”
You feel every cut I hide
Mirror on the other side
Two ghosts in a rented room
Trading scars like flowers bloom
[Chorus]
This is my emergency therapy
Dial your number like a remedy
We’re a trauma bond
Tangled and wrong
But you keep me holding on
Holding on
Got a medicated smile for the daylight
Sirens in my chest every midnight
When my mind screams
“go
” and I’m slipping off the edge
You talk me off the ledge
[Bridge]
Do you ever see the end sign?
Or are we just stalling time? (oh-oh)
Every thought a warning light
Every hug a tourniquet tight
If I say I wanna disappear
Will you stay right here
Right here?
[Chorus]
This is my emergency therapy
Your empathy’s the only remedy
We’re a trauma bond
Fragile and wrong
But I need you holding on
Holding on
Got a medicated smile for the daylight
Sirens in our lungs every midnight
When we both say
“stay
” bleeding on the edge
We pull back from the ledge

rock, Alt-rock band with male vocals; tense, chugging guitars and dry drums in the verses, bass pulsing like a racing heart. Choruses explode with wide distorted power chords, big group shouts on key phrases, and a gritty lead vocal on the edge of breaking. Brief ambient guitar swells and feedback in the bridge, then a final chorus that drops to half-time for maximum impact before a cold stop., alternative rock