Want to Live

[Verse 1]
I wake up in a bed that groans like me
Breathin' in the dread, countin' cracks in the ceiling
Another pill, another plea
Stretchin’ pennies like they’re dreams I'm stealin’

Aches I don't need, bruises I can’t name
A body fightin’ storms it never asked to weather
Dyin' slow in a no-name flame
But I swore I’d hold myself together


[Pre-Chorus]
And I keep sayin’
“Just a little more,”
“Get up, get out, don’t let it win”
But truth is, I’m tired to the core—
I’m not made of nothin’. I’m breakin’ thin
I don't need this shit!
I'm just trying to live! 


[Chorus]
I’m sick of survivin’
I just want to fucking live!
More than just breathin'
Asking for more than I give
I wanna laugh without flinchin'
Sleep without pain
Feel like I'm walkin'
Through sunshine, not rain
I'm sick of survivin’...
I want to live again
(I just want to feel alive..) 


[Verse 2]
Rent’s late, but I paid in pride
Wrote another lie on the job app line
Smiled like the world was just so kind
Even when my chest burned from standin’ in line

People say, “You’re strong, you’re brave”
But they ain’t seen the nights I shake in silence
It’s not courage, it’s the chains I’ve made
Outta fear, outta grief, outta quiet defiance
(What the fuck else am I going to do? Just sit and cry?!)


[Pre-Chorus]
And I keep hearin’
“Hold on, be still,”
“Your day will come, the tide will shift”
But what if this climb's just a hill
To a grave I never get to lift?


[Chorus]
I’m sick of survivin’
I just wanna fucking live!
More than just makin’
The best I can give
I wanna run without gaspin'
Speak without shame
Be more than a number
Or a face masked in pain
I'm sick of survivin’...
I want to live again
Just let me fucking live again! 

[Bridge] [instrumental swell, soft harmonies]
Still, I rise
Still, I bleed
Still, I claw from underneath
Not for glory
Not for gold
Just to feel the sun
before I’m too fucking old

[Final Chorus]
I’m sick of survivin’
I just wanna fucking live!
More than endurin’
I want to forgive
Forgive Myself for breakin'
Forgive Myself for need
And learn to answer the hunger
For more than just to feed
I'm sick of fucking survivin’...
I want to live again
Give me a goddamn break! 
And let me fucking breathe!
(And for fuck sake, if you're going to talk shit about me, at least do it to my face so I can knock your teeth in after)
[End]

Gritty rock, electric guitar, bass, drums, male vocals, saxophone