Still trying

I smile so you won’t see the cracks

I laugh so I don’t fall apart

But inside there’s a quiet ache

From the words that left a mark

You said you didn’t mean to break me

Still I’m piecing back my soul

Trying hard to love through silence

Trying hard to feel whole

But I’m still trying

Still believing

Still hoping we can make it through the night

Though I’m hurting

Still forgiving

I just need you to hold me, not to fight

I’m not walking out the door

I just can’t pretend no more

If I pull away, it’s not goodbye

I’m just still trying

I fear you'll grow tired of waiting

Of the way I’ve pulled away

But I’m not lost, I’m just healing

In my own unspoken way

Could you love me in the quiet?

Could you stay and understand?

That I’m reaching through the silence

Still holding your hand

Don’t need perfect, don’t need fast

Just want a love that’s built to last

Even when we fall apart

I need to know you’ll guard my heart