[INTRO, spoken, filtered]
[dry, close-mic]
I didn’t wake up tired…
I just never shut down.
[VERSE 1, fast, anxious, stacked]
Mind racing like it’s late for a train
Even laying still I’m running in place
Bills, texts, dreams I didn’t chase
Every “what if” screaming in my face
Phone lights up—heart rate spikes
Scroll past lives I don’t even like
Everyone winning in perfect frames
I compare the poison in my brain
I forgot what silence sounds like
Even peace needs Wi-Fi
I close my eyes, see yesterday
Rewind mistakes like a highlight
They say “breathe,” I tried that shit
Breath gets lost in the pile I’m in
Every thought wants five more minutes
Nothing ends—just interrupts
[PRE-CHORUS, half-sung, tension build]
I swear I rest but I don’t reset
Just mute the noise and drown in it
If this is calm, then what’s next?
‘Cause my head won’t let me disconnect
[CHORUS, melodic, sticky]
Too many tabs open in my head
I close one thought, three more instead
Can’t sleep even when I’m dead
So I dance till the noise makes sense
Too many tabs—no room to breathe
Brain buffering on low self-esteem
If I burn out, at least I’ll feel
Something real in the drop right here
[DROP 1]
[Instrumental]
[Vocal chop:] “tabs—tabs—open—open”
[Aggressive bass]
[Bright but stressed melody]
[Kick hits like panic pulses]
[VERSE 2, even faster, sharper, angrier]
Every choice feels permanent
Even lunch turns existential
“What if I fuck this moment up?”
Cool—add it to the mental debt
I rest my body, not my brain
Thoughts sneak in through dopamine veins
Caffeine courage, nicotine calm
Borrowed focus, interest on pain
I’m productive but hollow inside
Crossing tasks just to feel alive
They clap for the mask I wear
Never ask if I’m okay in there
I don’t spiral—I multitask
Panic attacks with a to-do list attached
If this is focus, this is hell
Still I smile, still I excel
[PRE-CHORUS 2, build harder]
I need a moment that doesn’t ask
Who I’ll be or what I lack
Just one beat to hijack my head
Before I overthink my next breath
[CHORUS, FULL POWER]
Too many tabs open in my head
I close one thought, three more instead
Can’t sleep even when I’m dead
So I dance till the noise makes sense
Too many tabs—no room to breathe
Brain buffering on anxiety
If I burn out, at least I’ll feel
Something real when the bass hits me
[DROP 2, BIGGEST, fake-out → slam]
[whispered vocal:] “still loading…”
[BOOM]
[Full bass, euphoric lead]
[Crowd jumping, release moment]
[BRIDGE, half-time, emotional clarity]
Maybe I’m not broken
Just overloaded
Too much input, not enough meaning
Too awake to stop believing
If this world won’t slow down for me
I’ll outrun it temporarily
Three minutes where my mind goes quiet
In the chaos—I feel alive
[FINAL CHORUS]
Too many tabs open in my head
But right now I’m present instead
If this night’s all the peace I get
I’ll take it loud, I’ll take it bent
Too many tabs, fuck it—let them burn
I’ll crash and boot up when it hurts
Till then let the speakers scream
This is the closest I get to sleep
JonnyOnit