3am and I'm wide awake again, playing scenes that haven't happened yet.
what if this? what if that? what if then? wheels spinning inside my restless head, every word I said today on repeat, did I sound too harsh or way too weak?
second-guessing every choice I make, wonder if it's real or just mistake.
I'm overthinking, overthinking every little thing. got my mind in circles and my heart's unraveling. why can't I just let it be, let it be, let it breathe.
I'm overthinking, overthinking everything.
Morning comes but sleep never did, racing thoughts I wish I could forbid.
analyzing looks and silent pauses, building mountains out of tiny causes.
reading into every text message, searching for some hidden leverage.
did that emoji mean they're mad at me, or am I just creating tragedy.
friends say "just relax and let it go," if only it were something I could control.
my brain's a maze without an exit, every path leads back to "what comes next?”.
I'm overthinking, overthinking every little thing. got my mind in circles and my heart's unraveling. why can't I just let it be, let it be, let it breathe?
I'm overthinking, overthinking everything.
Replaying conversations from last week, wondering if I'm just a freak. caring this much about the small details, while everyone else just sets their sails. moving along without a care, leaving me standing just to stare at my own reflection in the mirror, why I can't see clearer?
I'm overthinking, overthinking every little thing. got my mind in circles and my heart's unraveling. why can't I just let it be, let it be, let it breathe?
I'm overthinking, overthinking everything
why I turn a simple "hey" into a thesis on what they really mean to say, why I need to know the reason behind every single season of change that comes my way.
maybe peace is found in letting go, maybe trust means not needing to know every outcome. every twist and turn, some things you just can't learn. some mysteries are meant to stay unsolved, some questions don't need to be resolved.
I'm still thinking, always thinking, but maybe that's okay, gonna take it slower, find a gentler way, learning how to let it be, let it be, let it breathe, I'm still thinking, always thinking
I'm free, 3am but now I'm not alone, made my peace with this restless soul of mine, found a way to coexist with the voice inside that never quits asking why, and that's just fine.
I'm still thinking, always thinking, but maybe that's okay, gonna take it slower, find a gentler way, learning how to let it be, let it be, let it breathe, I'm still thinking, always thinking.
I'm still thinking, always thinking, but maybe that's okay, gonna take it slower, find a gentler way, learning how to let it be, let it be, let it breathe, I'm still thinking, always thinking
QueenK