Enough For Me

Am I the one to blame for giving too much,

Do anything just to feel their touch

Then Smile through silence, and drown in the noise,

Play the part perfectly, but do I have a choice?

They say “just be you,” but they don’t understand,

Do they love an illusion, or who I really am.

The times I express my self

Open up and try to explain,

my words fall short,

and things stay the same

I keep building myself just to watch me fall down,

I’m screaming for help, but I don’t make a sound.

I’m tired of chasing who I’ll never be,

Tired of begging for someone to see.

All of my flaws they’re still part of me,

I’m learning to love the mess underneath.

I’m not perfect, no and I’ll never be,

But maybe that’s finally enough for me.

I’ve buried my heart under layers of doubt,

I shrink when I’m real, so I shut myself out.

Every “I’m fine” is a shield for the pain,

But I’m so damn exhausted from playing this game.

I’ve tried to be softer, I’ve tried to be tough,

I’ve been “too much” and I’ve been “not enough.”

But maybe the truth is, I’m done keeping score

I’m done being less just to make you want more.

I’m breaking these chains made of fear and control,

I’m piecing together what’s left of my soul.

I’m tired of chasing who I’ll never be,

Tired of begging for someone to see.

All of my flaws they’re still part of me,

I’m learning to love the mess underneath.

I’m not perfect, no and I’ll never be,

But maybe that’s finally enough for me.

If love is a mirror, then I’ll look inside,

Find the strength in the scars that I try to hide.

If no one can be there the way that I need,

I’ll carry myself and I’ll learn to believe.

I’m done with the weight of who I “should” be,

Done hiding my soul so the world can’t see.

I’m breaking the cycle, I’m setting me free,

I’m done chasing acceptance and now accept me.

I’m not perfect, no and I’ll never be,

But maybe that’s finally… enough for me.