Lachromalady

my name is Corey and I'm an addict

I'm here to tell my story though it's rather tragic

Got a problem with my heart. I'm a slave to habit.

I focus on the damage to the ones that I love

Just to punish myself for selfish things that I've done

Using people, loving things, living life in reverse.

Gonna find me in the gutter or the back of a hearse.

I guess I'm cursed. I hope the drugs kill me first.

I apologize to everyone who gave a fuck

Enough to lift me up when the only thing I wanted was to just give up.

As undeserving as such

I'm forever to blame because it can't be undone

I lost the war but the battles were fun

My name is Corey and I'm an addict.

This life is all I got but you can have it.

I fell forever down a hole. Got me chasing rabbits.

Don't believe in magic.

I lost it all and it's so sad it's

Poetic justice. It reminds me that life is problematic for

a spoiled brat who wanted everything until he had it

Just to add it to the baggage piled in the attic

I apologize to everyone who gave a fuck

Enough to lift me up when the only thing I wanted was to just give up.

As undeserving as such

And I know that I'm to blame but it can't be undone

so someone gotta love me but I ain't the one.

It's a fight every day just to get out of bed.

I can't hear my thoughts over the voices in my head.

Paranoid delusions everyone is against me.

Fuck an intervention. But then it hits me. Nothing lasts forever. Even memories fade.

So let me sleep forever in the bed that I made.

So I apologize to everyone who cared so much

about a sad motherfucker undeserving as such

And I know that I'm to blame but it can't be undone

so someone gotta love me but I ain't the one.