Verse 1 (calm, controlled)
I don’t really open up like this…
so if I stumble over my words, that’s why
I spent a long time learnin’ how to look fine
while everything in me wasn’t
I’ve made decisions I can’t defend
I’ve been a man I wouldn’t trust standin’ in front of me
and I know that sounds heavy…
but it’s the truth
I hurt people
I ran when I should’ve stayed
I lied when it was easier
and I acted like none of it would catch up
but it did
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Chorus (still restrained, almost spoken melody)
If I tell you everything…
you might not stay
you might not look at me the same way
but I’ve carried it long enough
and I can’t fake it anymore
I’m not proud of where I’ve been
but I’m still here
tryin’ to change
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Verse 2 (pressure building)
There were nights I sat in silence
askin’ God if He forgot me
not because I deserved answers
but because I didn’t know how to fix what I was
and I met someone who didn’t run
even when she probably should’ve
she didn’t heal me…
she just didn’t leave
and that did somethin’ to me
I didn’t expect
it made me think
maybe I wasn’t completely gone
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Breakdown (Dax-style spoken, raw, no rhythm at first)
I don’t say this for sympathy
I’m not tryin’ to be the victim
I’m just sayin’…
there’s a version of me I buried
that still shows up sometimes
and I hate him
I hate what he did
I hate who he was
but I can’t pretend he wasn’t real
so I live with him
every day
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Chorus (weaker voice, more emotional)
If I tell you everything…
I don’t know what stays
or what breaks
but I can’t keep hidin’ behind a smile
like I’ve always been okay
I’m not proud of where I’ve been
but I’m still here
tryin’ to change
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Final Breakdown (almost whisper → build)
I used to think grace was for other people
the good ones
not guys like me
but I was wrong
because somehow…
I’m still breathin’
and I don’t know why
but I think that might mean
I still got time
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Outro (quiet, almost nothing)
So if you knew everything…
and you’re still here listenin’…
maybe that’s the point
Benjamin_barber
