Conflicted In The Abyss

[Verse 1]
Broke me
Strangled me
Loved me
Somehow I still breathe
Your name carved
In my shaking teeth
Hands on my shoulders
Saying this is how you keep me
[Chorus]
Should I stay or should I go
Both doors look the same
I choke
From the bottom of the abyss I pray
Waiting on a God that’s late
Trauma tucked in every fold
Of my pillow
Of my clothes
How can poison feel like home
Should I stay or should I go
[Verse 2]
You say I’m safe
As long as I don’t speak
Call it devotion
I call it feeling weak
I kiss your wounds
Ignore my own
You say you’ll change
Then throw another stone
[Chorus]
Should I stay or should I go
Both doors look the same
I choke
From the bottom of the abyss I pray
Waiting on a God that’s late
Trauma tucked in every fold
Of my pillow
Of my clothes
How can poison feel like home
Should I stay or should I go
[Bridge]
Is love supposed to feel like this
Like drowning with a gentle kiss (oh)
If saving you means losing me
Is that faith or misery
[Chorus]
Should I stay or should I go
Both doors look the same
I choke
From the bottom of the abyss I pray
Waiting on a God that’s late
Trauma tucked in every fold
Of my pillow
Of my clothes
If I finally let you go
Could that be the way back home

Moody alt-pop ballad with male vocals; intimate piano and distant pads in the verses, low-tuned kick and deep sub swell into a spacious, anthemic chorus. Vocal doubles and soft harmonies on the hook, subtle distorted swells and reverse reverb in the bridge for a haunted, cinematic feel.