[In]
(Sound of a phone vibrating on a table)
(Adlib:) You didn't even look up.
(Adlib:) Damn.
(Adlib:) Just friends, right?
[V1]
(Beat drops - deep and heavy)
I heard yesterday... they said there’s only going up.
But I’m sinking in your sofa, pouring from an empty cup.
I don't think you even like me, let’s keep it real
We just did the deed, but you don't care how I feel.
You call me "friend," but the energy is strange
I’m giving you the dollar, you just giving me the change.
I’m leaving all the time, walking out the door
And you don't even lift your head up off the floor.
[Ch]
You Preoccupied.
Yeah, you busy with your plans, pushing me aside.
I finally got the time to be with you alone
But you left me by myself, staring at my phone.
Hoping I had a "good time?" Yeah, that’s what you said?
While I’m replaying every movement in my head.
I wanted you. You wanted... I don't know what.
Now I’m feeling like a stranger in my gut.
(Adlib:) So preoccupied.
[Hook]
(Hypnotic Repetition)
Am I trash? (No.)
Am I gold? (I don't know.)
Am I staying? (I should go.)
Am I trash? (No.)
Am I gold? (I don't know.)
Am I staying? (I should go.)
[V2]
I went to grab your juice, standing by the sink.
Asking God for a sign, just trying to think.
"Do I leave? Do I stay? Is this even right?"
You didn't say a word to stop me in the night.
You should have told me you had plans, that you weren't free
Instead of playing games and wasting time with me.
Now I feel like trash, yeah, I feel used.
Trying to play it cool, but I’m just confused.
[Br]
(Music strips back - Atmospheric, floating vocals)
I heard a song say: "There is freedom in the drop"
But the pain in my chest, it don't ever stop.
"It's okay to cry," "It's okay to fall apart"
But I was never whole, never had a start.
My heart been broken so many times before
I’m just sweeping up the pieces off the floor.
(Vocal Run:) Ooh-woah, spiraling down...
[V3]
(Flow switches to a faster, melodic rap/sing)
When will my self-worth be enough for me?
When will I stop begging for things that should be free?
You got your eyes on the screen, I got my eyes on the door
I ain't settling for "maybe" and "later" no more.
Will God finally see me if I walk away?
Or is He waiting for me to stand up and say:
"I am worth the time! I am worth the plan!"
I don't need the validation of a preoccupied man.
(Adlib:) I said what I said!
[Ch]
You Preoccupied.
Yeah, you busy with your plans, pushing me aside.
I finally got the time to be with you alone
But you left me by myself, staring at my phone.
Hoping I had a "good time?" Yeah, that’s what you said?
While I’m replaying every movement in my head.
I wanted you. You wanted... I don't know what.
Now I’m feeling like a stranger in my gut.
[Out]
(Beat fades to a heartbeat)
(Spoken Word:)
I asked God if I should leave.
And silence was the answer.
So I’m leaving.
(Sound of a door closing)
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