Chorus]
Every time I get my hopes up, life let me down,
Thought I had it in my hands, now it’s spillin’ on the ground.
Said this time was different, but it’s just the same song,
So I don’t feel like hopin’, I been hurt too long.
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[Verse 1]
Said this time, I’m finally winnin’, got my head up high,
Told myself, “Stay patient, everything take time.”
But the moment I relax, think I’m back on track,
Something always come along just to knock me back.
Tried to stay out the way, keep my mind in my lane,
Tried to follow all the steps, but the rules all changed.
Every door that I open got a lock I ain't see,
Every step that I take feel like two back for me.
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[Chorus]
Every time I get my hopes up, life let me down,
Thought I had it in my hands, now it’s spillin’ on the ground.
Said this time was different, but it’s just the same song,
So I don’t feel like hopin’, I been hurt too long.
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[Verse 2]
Man, I swear, I thought I had it, thought the worst days passed,
Then the sky turned dark, felt the storm hit fast.
Tried trustin’ in my people, but they switched up too,
Tried to stand on my own, but the ground won’t hold.
Every lesson that I learned got me questionin’ more,
Like, "Is it even worth it tryna open that door?"
Used to pray, used to dream, used to think there’s a way,
Now I wake up and just take what the world gon’ say.
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[Interlude – Arguing with Himself]
(Voice 1 – Hopeful)
“Man, maybe this time, it could all work out,
You just gotta keep faith, gotta push through doubt.”
(Voice 2 – Broken)
“For what? To get crushed? To watch it all fall?
Every time I stand up, I don’t stand for long.”
(Voice 1 – Hopeful)
“You don’t know what’s ahead, what if this is the time?
You just gotta keep walkin’, let your stars align.”
(Voice 2 – Broken)
“I been sayin’ that for years, but the story don’t change,
Hope is just another way to set myself up for pain.”
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[Verse 3]
So now I move different, don’t expect too much,
Ain’t no dreams, ain’t no plans, I just take what I clutch.
Ain’t no “next time,” ain’t no “one day soon,”
Ain’t no light at the end, just the same ol’ gloom.
Tried to force myself to care, but my heart went numb,
Tried to tell myself “keep goin’,” but the words won’t come.
Maybe luck ain’t real, maybe fate just lie,
So I keep my head low, let the world pass by.
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[Chorus]
Every time I get my hopes up, life let me down,
Thought I had it in my hands, now it’s spillin’ on the ground.
Said this time was different, but it’s just the same song,
So I don’t feel like hopin’, I been hurt too long.
[Outro]
Nah, I don’t feel like hopin’ no more...
Life keep showin’ me the same closed door...
Tried to break through, but my hands too sore...
So I just sit back, let it be what it’s for...