[Verse 1]
I fold the letters
In a drawer I never open
Dust on the windowsill
Dust on the words I left unspoken
I change the lock
On a door you used to slam
Learning how to hold my ground
Inside these shaking hands
[Chorus]
I’m gathering my own light
From every crack you left behind
All the pieces of my life
That I was taught to hide
I’m not your ruin
Not your fault
I’m the one who walks through fire
I’m gathering my own light
And I’m setting it on fire (oh-oh)
[Verse 2]
I paint the bedroom
A color you would’ve hated
Sleep on the left side now
Just to feel the space I’ve taken
I wear the dress
You said didn’t fit my frame
Spin in the hallway
’til I almost like my name
[Chorus]
I’m gathering my own light
From every crack you left behind
All the pieces of my life
That I was taught to hide
I’m not your ruin
Not your fault
I’m the one who walks through fire
I’m gathering my own light
And I’m setting it on fire (hey)
[Bridge]
You were thunder
I was always bracing for the sound
Now there’s silence
And I’m learning it can hold me now
I am not broken
I am branches after storm
Bent and battered
Still reaching for the warm
[Chorus]
I’m gathering my own light
From every crack you left behind
All the pieces of my life
That I was taught to hide
I’m not your ruin
Not your fault
I’m the one who walks through fire
I’m gathering my own light
And I’m rising even higher (oh-oh)
I’m gathering my own light
And I’m calling it desire