The Fourth

Sitting across from an empty chair

I sometimes imagine your sitting there

I ask you "are you really here?"

I feel a soft breeze cooling my tears

I haven't been the same since you've been gone

I try to go about my day but it feels wrong

I can't pick up the phone and ask you how you are!

And I still cant make myself move on

How could you make such a choice?

I raised you strong to have a voice

I never gave up on you no matter what

Did you ever think of the pain you would cause?

But I get it

You don't regret it

You couldn't live with the voices in your mind.

And I can't compare your pain to mine.

I picture you once you crossed over

Your eyes beamed wide open

Almost forgetting what you left behind

Then it flashed before you one last time

You visit us one by one to say goodbye

I made it a point to explain

I didn't want your death to be in vain

I told them everything you said

How you believed it was God's plan

And he will forgive you then

And I would never understand

But for me there is still a plan

Just know it's inevitable

It's not your fault

You're all incredible

For all that you've done

But I am done

Ohhh

How could you make such a choice?

I raised you strong to have a voice

I never gave up on you no matter what

Did you ever think of the pain you would cause?

But I get it

You don't regret it

You couldn't live with the voices in your mind.

And I can't compare your pain to mine.