Verse 1
Nineteen in a house that don’t feel like mine
Same walls, same ghosts, different kind of time
They say he’s out, but I don’t hear his name
Just a silence that still knows my face
Mum said it wasn’t love, just a plan
Two lives crossed just to make who I am
Now I’m standing here, trying to understand
Why I feel like a stranger in my own skin
Pre-Chorus
And I don’t talk about it much
Yeah, I just keep it locked away
But every mirror that I touch
Throws it back into my face
Chorus
I look like someone I don’t wanna be
A reflection that keeps chasing me
I didn’t choose these eyes, this shape, this name
But I carry it all the same
And I try, but I can’t outrun
Where I came from, what I’ve become
Feels like I’m losing before I start
Living in a body that breaks my heart
Verse 2
My sister moved on, built a life of her own
Got a little girl, got a place called home
I’m still here in the quiet noise
Me and my thoughts and the same old void
Little sister doesn’t even know
How small I feel when I’m standing close
It’s not her fault, it’s just how it goes
I disappear where her confidence grows
Pre-Chorus
And I don’t say it out loud
Yeah, I just smile and play along
But inside the doubt’s so loud
Like I’ve been wrong my whole life long
Chorus
I look like someone I don’t wanna be
A reflection that keeps chasing me
I didn’t choose these eyes, this shape, this name
But I carry it all the same
And I try, but I can’t outrun
Where I came from, what I’ve become
Feels like I’m losing before I start
Living in a body that breaks my heart
Bridge
I’m scared of doors I’ve never walked through
Every job feels like a life I’ll lose
What if I pick wrong and I’m stuck again?
What if I never know where I fit in?
Step-mum’s gone like a switch went cold
No calls, no texts, just stories untold
Guess love leaves quiet, no warning signs
Just empty spaces it leaves behind
But I got four hearts with fur and paws
They don’t see me like my flaws
They curl up close like I’m enough
Like I’m already someone to love
Final Chorus
I look like someone I don’t wanna be
But maybe that’s not all of me
Maybe there’s more than blood and past
Something different I can still grasp
Yeah I try, even when it’s hard
Even with all these broken parts
Maybe I’m more than where I start
Maybe this isn’t all my heart
Outro
Nineteen, still learning how to breathe
Still trying to like the girl I see
And maybe one day I’ll believe
She’s more than who she used to be
CHELSEA
