Undone

You trace my tattoos like scripture

Fingertips soft against ruined skin

Like maybe if you memorize the damage

You’ll understand the war I’m in

And your hand rests over my chest at night

Feeling my heart misfire inside

While I stare holes into the ceiling

Wondering why you still try

Cause loving me is like

Holding water in your lungs

Beautiful for a second

Then slowly coming undone

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But you pull me closer anyway

Like you’re addicted to the pain

Like every broken part of me

Still tastes holy on your tongue

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And I hate how much I need you

How your voice cuts through the dark

How your touch can resurrect me

Then tear me back apart

You love me like a sickness

Like something fatal you can’t quit

And God, I swear I’d die for you

Just to feel your hands again

Cause when you lay against me

With your heartbeat over mine

I almost believe

I deserve to stay alive

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You catch me staring at the edge again

Mind somewhere cold and violent

Trying to disappear quietly

Before I become too much to fix

But you crawl into my arms

Like you belong inside the wreckage

Kissing every scar slowly

Until grief starts sounding romantic

And maybe that’s what scares me most

Not losing you

But being known

Cause you’ve seen the worst parts of my soul

And still sleep beside me

Like I’m worth holding onto

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So if I self-destruct tonight

If the darkness finally decides

To drag me underneath

Promise you’ll remember me warm

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I hate how much I need you

Like a blade needs open skin

Like heaven needs the hopeless

To let forgiveness in

And your love feels dangerous

The kind people write about after death

All obsession and trembling hands

And smoke inside the chest

But when your hand is over my heart

Feeling every violent beat

I swear for a moment

The emptiness retreats

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We were never soft people

We loved too hard for that

Two damaged souls

Mistaking survival for romance

Still…

I’d let you ruin me forever

If it meant never losing your touch

Because dying slowly beside you

Still feels better

Than living without your love

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So hold me close tonight

Like you’re trying to keep me from fading

Trace the ink beneath my skin

Like proof I was here

And if I fall apart before the morning

If my mind finally caves in

Let your hand rest over my heart

Until it forgets how to ache.