(Verse 1)
My chest has been quiet lately
Not peaceful, just still
Like winter resting on a garden
Waiting for something to heal
And there’s a place beneath my breathing
Where your absence settles in
A tender ache I carry softly
Just underneath my skin
(Pre-Chorus)
I wake up with your shadow
Folded into every sigh
And some days I can almost touch you
When I close my eyes
(Chorus)
It feels like someone’s holding my heart
With both hands, squeezing slow
Not enough to stop it beating
Just enough to let me know
That you’re gone
And the strange thing is
Part of me doesn’t ask them to release it
Because letting go of the pain
Feels too much like losing you completely
(Verse 2)
The numbness comes in gentle waves now
Drifting through my chest
Like my body learned the language
Of carrying what it can’t forget
I never knew a heart could grieve this way
Could ache without a sound
Could feel so heavy in a body
While still floating off the ground
(Chorus)
It feels like someone’s holding my heart
With both hands, squeezing tight
Every memory another finger
Wrapped around what’s left inside
And though it hurts
I lay here quietly
Because for a little while longer
The pain still feels like proof
That you were real
(Bridge)
I’m tired
Not the kind that sleep can fix
Not the kind that fades by morning
Just tired of reaching for someone
Who isn’t reaching back
Tired of carrying yesterday
Inside today’s heartbeat
Tired of wondering
If you’re carrying any of this too
(Outro)
So tonight I’ll rest here softly
Hand over my chest
Listening to the ache
Listening to the space you left
And if someone’s still holding my heart
Let them
I’m too tired to fight it
And for now
It’s the closest thing
I have to being held
Teela
