[Verse 1]
I lock the bathroom door
And stare at my own hands
Old marks in the mirror
Like ghosts in the skin
My mind gets loud again
It says, “Just give in now”
But I bite through the dark
And stay in this room
[Pre-Chorus]
I know that voice
I know its name
It comes for me
When I'm hurting bad
But I'm still here
I'm still a fight
I won't let pain
Write my ending
[Chorus]
Not tonight, not tonight
I won't let it win
Not tonight, not tonight
I choose to live again
Scars on my skin
They do not own me
Scars on my skin
I'm still me
[Verse 2]
Every day feels heavy
Like I’m dragging stones
Every thought turns sharp
And I feel it close
I press my nails to the sink
Until the urge shakes loose
Then I call out for help
Even if my voice breaks
[Pre-Chorus]
I know that voice
I know its name
It comes for me
When I'm hurting bad
But I'm still here
I'm still a fight
I won't let pain
Write my ending
[Chorus]
Not tonight, not tonight
I won't let it win
Not tonight, not tonight
I choose to live again
Scars on my skin
They do not own me
Scars on my skin
I'm still me
[Bridge]
If I fall, pull me close
Stay with me right here
Take the sharp things away
Hold this shaking fear
I need a hand, not a wound
I need breath, not blood
I need someone to say
“You made it through”
[Final Chorus]
Not tonight, not tonight
I won't let it win
Not tonight, not tonight
I choose to live again
Scars on my skin
They do not own me
Scars on my skin
I'm still me
Not tonight, not tonight
I won't let it win
Not tonight, not tonight
I choose to live again