[Verse 1]
You left your T-shirt on my chair
Smells like the night I disappeared
I talk tough in the bathroom mirror
Then choke on every word I hear
[Pre-Chorus]
You’re in the quiet when the crowd gets loud
In every promise that I let fall out
Wish I could say I’m better now
But I still see you in the background
[Chorus]
Haunt me when I’m sober
Hit me when it’s over
I keep digging in the wound
Just to feel you pulling closer
I’m chained to who I was
Drowned in what I’ve done
I’m begging for a war
Just to prove I’m not the coward you loved
[Verse 2]
I scrub your name out of my phone
Still trace the letters on my throat
I wear this guilt like borrowed skin
Too tight to move
Too soft to shed
[Pre-Chorus]
You’re in the doorway when I try to leave
That broken version staring back at me
If I could burn this memory clean
Would there be anything left of me?
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
I’m tired of tasting rust and blame
Of lighting matches
Calling it change
If I outrun the ghost in my chest
Will I find you
Or finally rest?
[crescendo]
[Chorus]