My sister

I can't deny this whole in my life

I forgive her

But i could never wipe this pain from eyes

Its confusing for me to understand my feelings towards you

We share the same blood

And so no matter what

Ill always have love for you

I cant make sense of how you could

What you did to me i never would

Hate you, ya i probably should

I know you cant come close to say you understood

Until you have stood where i have stood

I'd never be able to make you feel this pain

Oh, even if i could

Chorus

So many nights i lay in bed

Afraid to fall asleep

Because i know it haunts me if i fall too deep

You've never woke up feeling this whole in your chest

Lord knows if it helped I'd sleep in a bullet proof vest

To guard my heart from the memories my mind wont forget to digest

If you ever wonder how death feels when your still alive

Just sit with me awhile cus baby i know it the best

Mhmmmhmm mm mhhmm

Ya

When i see you i smile

But behind it ive got scars for miles

I still love you and everyday i tell myself i forgive you

But seeing you with your family makes it hard to be around you

You did good with your life

While ive been barely making it to servive

Im someone's burden

While your at home being somebodies wife

You took my air to breath

The constriction wont set me free

Chorus

So many nights i lay in bed

Afraid to fall asleep

Because i know it haunts me if i fall too deep

You've never woke up feeling this whole in your chest

Lord knows if it helped I'd sleep in a bullet proof vest

To guard my heart from the memories my mind wont forget to digest

If you ever wonder how death feels when your still alive

Just sit with me awhile cus baby i know it the best

Mhmmmhmm mm mhhmm

Ya