I can't deny this whole in my life
I forgive her
But i could never wipe this pain from eyes
Its confusing for me to understand my feelings towards you
We share the same blood
And so no matter what
Ill always have love for you
I cant make sense of how you could
What you did to me i never would
Hate you, ya i probably should
I know you cant come close to say you understood
Until you have stood where i have stood
I'd never be able to make you feel this pain
Oh, even if i could
Chorus
So many nights i lay in bed
Afraid to fall asleep
Because i know it haunts me if i fall too deep
You've never woke up feeling this whole in your chest
Lord knows if it helped I'd sleep in a bullet proof vest
To guard my heart from the memories my mind wont forget to digest
If you ever wonder how death feels when your still alive
Just sit with me awhile cus baby i know it the best
Mhmmmhmm mm mhhmm
Ya
When i see you i smile
But behind it ive got scars for miles
I still love you and everyday i tell myself i forgive you
But seeing you with your family makes it hard to be around you
You did good with your life
While ive been barely making it to servive
Im someone's burden
While your at home being somebodies wife
You took my air to breath
The constriction wont set me free
Chorus
So many nights i lay in bed
Afraid to fall asleep
Because i know it haunts me if i fall too deep
You've never woke up feeling this whole in your chest
Lord knows if it helped I'd sleep in a bullet proof vest
To guard my heart from the memories my mind wont forget to digest
If you ever wonder how death feels when your still alive
Just sit with me awhile cus baby i know it the best
Mhmmmhmm mm mhhmm
Ya