That one day

When the noise fades I hear my pain room full of people,still feel the rain smile on my face but it feel like a lie I’m awake all night asking god why? I been holding on but I’m losing grip heart too heavy for the words I zip if I let it out I might break in two so I write these lines just to make it through I don’t talk much I just sit with it memories loud I don’t mix with it they say move on like it’s that simple but some scars stay permanent not mental I trusted people they changed sides left me alone with these late nights phone stay dry no one checking in guess everyone there when you winnin I replay moments I should’ve sided more should’ve walked away should’ve shut that door now I’m stuck with thoughts I can’t outrun tryna heal but the damage is done