Gemini

[Intro]
[hollow, introspective]
Mirror, mirror... which one am I today?
The one who builds or the one who breaks?
[dark ambient pad, heartbeat kick pattern]

[Verse 1]
I told her that I loved her then I pushed her away
My Gemini's conflicted, can't decide if she should stay
Morning, I'm a king, by the night I'm full of doubt
One side wants her close, other's planning my way out
I'm confident at midnight, insecure at dawn
Text her paragraphs then wonder why I'm holding on
My twin's a saboteur, he whispers in my head
Says I'm better off alone while I'm laying in her bed
Two versions of myself and they're at war within
One's trying to be better, one's addicted to the sin
She said "baby, what's your damage?" I don't know which one to blame
The lover or the monster, they both share my name

[Pre-Chorus]
And I switch, I switch
Between healing and destruction (destruction)
One foot in, one foot out
Of my own corruption

[Chorus]
I'm a Gemini, split right down the middle
One side holds you close, the other's noncommittal
Love you like religion then I'm cold as winter nights
Two souls in my body and they're always in a fight (in a fight)
Gemini, Gemini
I'm my own worst enemy tonight

[Verse 2]
3 AM, I'm typing out apologies I'll delete
Morning comes, my ego says I'm too proud to be weak
Built her up with compliments then tore her down with silence
Internal civil war, all this self-inflicted violence
One twin wants forever, other's scared to be known
So I self-destruct relationships before they're fully grown
I'm a walking contradiction, confidence and fear
Tell her that I need her then disappear for a year
She deserves the better half but gets the broken whole
Two-faced with myself, I can't control which one unfolds
Therapy on Tuesday, but by Friday I'm the same
Different masks, same issues, just recycling the pain

[Bridge]
[raw, building]
Isolation amplifies the voices in my skull
One says "fight for love," the other says "go numb"
I'm exhausted being two people in one skin
But I don't know how to kill my twin (kill my twin)
Without losing everything

[Final Chorus]
I'm a Gemini, at war inside my mind
One half builds a future, one leaves everything behind
Love her like she's oxygen then suffocate the room
Both sides of my zodiac just lead back to my doom (to my doom)
Gemini, Gemini
Can't escape the enemy inside

[Outro]
[fading, defeated]
Mirror, mirror... they're both me
[whispered]
And that's the tragedy
[lone piano note rings out]

Dark R&B, Dark Pop, Smooth male vocals, twin-panned synths, deep 808s, atmospheric reverb, dissonant chord progressions.