Suicide

When life feels so hard taking your life feels right.
There’s an aching pain in my body that won’t go away.
All the trauma I went through it stabs me at the worst time.
Derailing my life. 
I fight through it I try all the coping but it will never be fixed.
You can’t undo the past.
The words that carved wounds into my soul.
Physical abuse the pain you can never seem to get rid of. 
It’s a jabbing like it’s constantly there
There are days when I don’t want to be here.
To die and never come back to a world like this. 
To never feel pain again. 
Such longing.
To ease all the hurt and rejection I’ve experienced through the years. 
To never not know what it means to not be loved.

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