against my will

Verse 1

I’m just surviving,

Need to prove that I exist

Like I’m worth the air I’m breathing

But still have to fight for it

I live in some kind of middle

Where nothing ends or begins

Life just keeps on passing

Like it was never meant to land

Pre-Chorus

I feel borrowed… thin… untrue

Like I’m walking in someone else’s shoes

I don’t chase the future anymore

I just trace the floor I’m standing on

Chorus

I’m not asleep, I’m not awake

Just stitched together by my own mistakes

I’m not dead, but I don’t feel alive

I learned how to stay, not how to survive

I’m still here, and it’s all so loud

I’m still breathing, but fading out

I am here… still…

But against my will

Verse 2

I don’t fall apart, I just come undone

Slowly losing to what I’ve become

I move through rooms like an afterthought

Present enough, but not enough to be caught

Pre-Chorus 2

Time keeps asking all of me

I answer late, just drift away

I feel borrowed… thin… untrue

Like I’m losing in all I do

Chorus

I’m not asleep, I’m not awake

Just stitched together by my own mistakes

I’m not dead, but I don’t feel alive

I learned how to stay, not how to survive

I’m still here, and it’s all so loud

I’m still breathing, but fading out

I am here… still…

But against my will

Bridge

I’m tired of hearing it’s getting better

Tired of holding on

Tired of picking up the pieces

Tired of just being strong

The weather wasn’t mine to choose

And I’ve been in it far too long

I’m not asking for a new life

Just one where I can feel alive

Final Chorus

I’m not asleep, I’m not awake

Just stitched together by my own mistakes

I’m not dead, but I don’t feel alive

I learned how to stay, not how to survive

I’m still here, and it’s all so loud

I’m still breathing, but fading out

I am here… still…

But against my will