If You Still Hear Me

I’m at the bottom of a hole I dug myself  
With every promise that I broke and left for dead  
I hear Your name inside my head but I can’t tell  
If it’s Your voice or just the echo of regret  

I taste the guilt in every breath I try to take  
It burns my chest like I deserve to feel the flame  
I tried to run but every road just leads to shame  
And now I’m here with nothing left but just Your name  


I know I did this to myself  
I know I don’t deserve Your help  
But I’m still calling out in the dark…  


If I just pretend that You still hear me  
Would You come and find me in the end?  
If I just pretend that I’m not empty  
Could You love me like I’m worth it again?  

I’m so afraid that I’ve gone too far  
That Heaven closed its doors on me  
But if You’re there on the other side  
Why won’t You give up on me?  


They say the broken don’t belong inside Your light  
That cowards fall before they ever reach the gate  
And I’ve been drowning in these thoughts every night  
Convincing myself it’s already too late  

But there’s a whisper underneath the noise I made  
A quiet voice that doesn’t sound like all the hate  
It tells me even now I’m not too far away  
But I don’t know if I have strength to trust the grace  


I’m buried under who I’ve been  
I’m terrified to breathe again  
But I’m still reaching out through the dark…  


If I just pretend that You still hear me  
Would You come and find me in the end?  
If I just pretend that I’m not empty  
Could You love me like I’m worth it again?  

I’m so afraid that I’ve gone too far  
That Heaven closed its doors on me  
But if You’re there on the other side  
Why won’t You give up on me?  



What if mercy looks like staying alive tonight?  
What if grace is calling me to keep the fight?  
What if all this pain doesn’t get the final say…  

And what if You’ve been here the whole time anyway?  


So I won’t pretend that You can’t hear me  
I’ll scream Your name until it breaks  
If I’m unworthy, then still take me  
‘Cause I’ve got nothing left but faith  

And if I’m lost at the edge of it all  
If I’m the one no one would save  
Then why do I still feel Your arms  
Reaching for me through the grave…

Alternative metal / metalcore (soft side) Dark pop / atmospheric rock Post-hardcore influence