Black Heart

Black heart, clean hands

I came here to bury what I couldn't make you understand

I brought my whole chest, you brought a maybe

I called it patience, you called me crazy

Kept watering a garden that was never gonna grow

Now the therapist says, "Name it, then let go"

I named every silence, every half-reply

Every time I shrank myself to keep you by my side

You liked being loved, but never loved me back

So I’m taking my devotion off your welcome mat

No more courtroom in my head

No more proving what I said

I don’t need your stamp of worth

I was whole before your hurt

This is the last love song with your name in the frame

Last time I confuse neglect with something I should chase

I gave you every sunrise, you gave me reasons to wait

Now I’m walking out the ashes with a black heart, clean slate

Black heart, clean slate

I can grieve you and still be okay

Black heart, clean slate

I’m done begging love to stay

Therapy room, two chairs, one truth on the floor

I don’t miss you, I miss who I was before

Before I made your distance sound deep and divine

Before I read a three-word text like a sacred sign

You were not a puzzle, I was forcing the pieces

Calling crumbs a feast, calling panic my weakness

Now the old ache knocks, but I don’t let it in

I can feel it at the door and choose myself again

No more courtroom in my head

No more worshipping the dead

Not the body, just the dream

Of you becoming what you seemed

This is the last love song with your name in the frame

Last time I confuse neglect with something I should chase

I gave you every sunrise, you gave me reasons to wait

Now I’m walking out the ashes with a black heart, clean slate

Black heart, clean slate

I can grieve you and still be okay

Black heart, clean slate

I’m done begging love to stay

If you call, let it ring

I don’t owe the past a thing

If you cry, that’s not a sign

Your regret is not my lifeline

I release the version of me

That needed you to finally see

This is the last love song, let the record fade

Last time I turn rejection into debt I have to pay

I gave you every sunrise, now I’m keeping my own flame

Walking out with a black heart, but I’m not the same

Black heart, clean slate

No more begging love to stay

Black heart, clean slate

I choose me anyway

No more letters

No more waiting

No more love I have to translate

Black heart

Clean slate