Ghost in my hoodie

Verse 1)

I still leave the porch light on when nobody’s coming home

Still got your number saved but I never call the phone

Everybody says I’m different, maybe that’s the point

Maybe losing everything is how you find your voice

I’ve been staring at the ceiling counting every crack

Trying to find the version of me that ain’t coming back

Smile for every picture, let ‘em think I’m doing fine

But the truth don’t fit inside a caption half the fucking time

(Pre-Chorus)

If I let the walls come down

Would you recognize me now?

Or am I just another shadow

Trying to outrun myself somehow?

(Chorus)

I’ve been carrying ghosts in my hoodie

Trying to act like they don’t know me

Everybody says, “Keep your head up”

They don’t know a damn thing the dark showed me

If I lose another piece tonight

Maybe that’s just part of healing

I’m still here, still breathing somehow

And that’s enough of a fucking reason

(Verse 2)

The mirror keeps reflecting someone learning how to stand

Not the kid who needed saving, just a man with shaking hands

I’m tired of pretending everything is all okay

I’ve been fighting my own head every goddamn day

If tomorrow never knows me, that’s alright with me

I’d rather tell the ugly truth than fake what people see

(Outro)

If this is who I am becoming

Don’t pull me back to yesterday

Some scars don’t need disguises

Some are maps that show the wa