Verse 1)
I still leave the porch light on when nobody’s coming home
Still got your number saved but I never call the phone
Everybody says I’m different, maybe that’s the point
Maybe losing everything is how you find your voice
I’ve been staring at the ceiling counting every crack
Trying to find the version of me that ain’t coming back
Smile for every picture, let ‘em think I’m doing fine
But the truth don’t fit inside a caption half the fucking time
(Pre-Chorus)
If I let the walls come down
Would you recognize me now?
Or am I just another shadow
Trying to outrun myself somehow?
(Chorus)
I’ve been carrying ghosts in my hoodie
Trying to act like they don’t know me
Everybody says, “Keep your head up”
They don’t know a damn thing the dark showed me
If I lose another piece tonight
Maybe that’s just part of healing
I’m still here, still breathing somehow
And that’s enough of a fucking reason
(Verse 2)
The mirror keeps reflecting someone learning how to stand
Not the kid who needed saving, just a man with shaking hands
I’m tired of pretending everything is all okay
I’ve been fighting my own head every goddamn day
If tomorrow never knows me, that’s alright with me
I’d rather tell the ugly truth than fake what people see
(Outro)
If this is who I am becoming
Don’t pull me back to yesterday
Some scars don’t need disguises
Some are maps that show the wa