The man im still becoming 2

Verse 1

I gave that woman everything,

Three years of my life I never knew,

Thought I had forever in my hands,

Till forever came undone.

I watched my family split in two,

And blamed myself for what we lost,

I’d trade a thousand nights of sleep

To go back and count the cost.

Pre-Chorus

Now I carry memories

Like a weight beneath my skin,

Some days I swear I’m over it,

Then it all comes back again.

Chorus

I’m just trying to be the man

I was before the breaking,

Trying to be a better dad

For the kids my heart is aching.

I work until I’m worn down,

Then wonder where the years went,

Got a house full of people

And sometimes still feel distant.

I don’t know where I’m going,

But I know where I’ve been—

I’m not the man I used to be,

But I’m still becoming him.

Verse 2

There’s nights I want the silence,

Just a truck, a road, and me,

Somewhere underneath the stars

Where nobody needs a thing.

I miss the man who loved without

Always looking for the fall,

Before trust became a question

And love became a wall.

I still remember little things

That I wish I could forget,

The life I thought my children

Would grow up knowing yet.

I wanted Mom and Dad together,

Wanted Christmases the same,

And sometimes I still wonder

If my kids blame me for the change.

Chorus

I’m just trying to be the man

I was before the breaking,

Trying to be a better dad

For the kids my heart is aching.

I work until I’m worn down,

Then wonder where the years went,

Got a heart that’s tired of fighting

And a soul that’s tired of waiting.

I don’t know where I’m going,

But I know where I’ve been—

I’m not the man I used to be,

But I’m still becoming him.

Bridge

Maybe peace ain’t going backward,

Maybe healing ain’t forgetting.

Maybe being strong ain’t standing

When your heart says you’ve been hurting.

Maybe God can take the pieces

That I swear don’t fit again,

And build something worth believing in

From everything that’s been.

Final Chorus

I’m gonna be the man

My children know they can lean on,

Gonna make the most of every

Little moment I can keep ‘em.

And when the past comes knocking,

I don’t have to let it in.

I can miss what I once had

Without living there again.

I’ve been through hell and back,

And I’m still standing in the wind.

I lost the life I thought I’d have—

But I haven’t lost who I am.

Outro

So here’s to every broken road,

Every scar beneath my skin,

Every night I thought I couldn’t

Get back up again.

I’m still here.

I’m still trying.

And maybe that’s where healing begins.

I’m not the man I used to be…

I’m the man I’m still becoming