Verse 1
I like the dark side of my room,
Curtains closed at half past noon,
Phone lights up, I let it die,
Too drained to fake a “hey, I’m fine.”
Everybody’s laughing loud,
Like they’re born to work a crowd,
I watch ‘em like a different species,
Running on some endless energy.
Pre-Chorus
And I don’t get it,
How your smile never slips,
How your heart keeps beating
Like it’s wired for this.
Chorus
Happy people kinda scare me,
Dancing like the world’s not heavy,
Talking fast, lights in their eyes,
Like they never stay awake at night.
How are you never tired?
How’s your soul not catching fire?
Being “on” all the time
Looks exhausting from this side.
Verse 2
I speak fluent silence now,
Made a home where no one’s loud,
I know every crack up in my ceiling,
Better than I know most human feelings.
They say, “Come out, it’ll help your head,”
But crowds just leave me feeling dead,
Everybody shining neon bright,
While I’m static in black and white.
Pre-Chorus
And maybe I’m broken,
Or maybe I just see too much,
‘Cause happiness that constant
Feels a little dangerous.
Chorus
Happy people kinda scare me,
Posting sunsets every evening,
Smiling like it’s effortless,
Like the world’s not a sinking ship.
How are you never angry?
Never empty? Never fading?
Being “fine” all the time
Looks exhausting from this side.
Bridge
Maybe they cry when nobody sees,
Maybe they’re just better actors than me,
Maybe I’m jealous, maybe I’m numb,
Maybe I forgot how to become
Someone who can breathe easy,
Someone light instead of heavy.
Final Chorus
Happy people still confuse me,
But maybe they’re just bruised differently,
Maybe everybody’s tired too,
Just hiding it better than I do.
So I’ll stay here for tonight,
In the quiet, out of sight,
Trying not to disappear
Inside another lonely year.
Ivailia