[Female Vocal Range: A3–F5 | Emotional cracks + breathy peaks distant piano swells]
[VERSE 1 – soft A3–C4, breathy]
I keep falling again, like I never learned a thing
Every warning in my chest, but I still go touching flames
[voice‑crack] I swear I’m trying, God knows I’m trying
But the heat pulls me in like it’s calling my name
[PRE‑CHORUS – lift to D4–E4]
How many times do I touch that stove
Before I finally believe it burns?
Why do I keep reaching out
For the hurt I already earned?
[CHORUS – F4–F5, emotional peaks]
I just wanna be normal, just wanna breathe
Wanna show up for my kids, be who they need
And my granddaughter’s smile—God, it should be enough
But I’m stuck in this loop where I break my own trust
[voice‑crack on “trust”]
Nobody gets me, nobody hears
I’m screaming inside but it disappears
Why can’t I get it? Why can’t I learn?
Every time I fall, I fall back into the burn
[VERSE 2 – A3–C4, shaky tone]
I keep promising change, but the mirror stays the same
I’m a storm in a small room, spinning shame into blame
[breath‑catch] I wanna rise, I wanna stay
But the fire keeps whispering, pulling me away
[PRE‑CHORUS – stronger E4]
How many times do I touch that stove
Before I finally walk away?
Why do I keep choosing pain
Like I don’t deserve a safer place?
[Song slows and fades as if over and then big surprise ending]
[CHORUS x2 repeat twice– F4–F5, strained edges]
I just wanna be normal, just wanna breathe
Wanna show up for my kids, be who they need
And my granddaughter’s laugh—God, it should be enough
But I’m stuck in this cycle of losing my trust
[voice‑crack on “cycle”]
Nobody gets me, nobody hears
I’m begging for help but it disappears
Why can’t I get it? Why can’t I learn?
Every time I fall, I fall back into the burn
[BRIDGE – whispered A3–B3, rising to D4]
Maybe one day I’ll break the pattern
Maybe one day I’ll choose me first
But tonight I’m tired, and I’m hurting
And I’m scared of how much it hurts
[OUTRO – soft, fading]
How many times till I finally learn?
How many falls till I stop the burn?
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