when to get affection

now I don't expect anything from them because what I did was definitely wrong

I feel sadness and envy when I see my friends with their happy families

I hate it when you always scold me

I hate it when you always compare me with other kids

I hate it because I feel less cared for

and I hate it when I have to hold back tears because I hear my friends' stories about their families

I think I am the unluckiest child in this world because I feel like you don't want me either. I always hoped that we would be the family I dreamed of but it turns out my hopes won't come true.

That's why I always try to be a good and obedient child so that you pay a little attention to me, but I think that's impossible