Numbed But Blessed

[Verse 1]
I learned your name
In a room that smelled like dust
Folded hands
Plastic faith
Paper trust
Every Sunday
I was told you’d hold me close
Now the ceiling
Stares back at me the most
[Chorus]
I’m numbed but blessed
(so they say, so they say)
Hands in the air
But my heart’s in the way
If you’re there
Why am I
Screaming in the dark like this?
I’m scared to leave
But you don’t even flinch
[Verse 2]
I tried to pray
But the words just felt like chalk
White and bitter
On a tongue that wants to talk
I drew your face
In the fog on my cracked screen
It fades quick
Guess you never liked the scene
[Chorus]
I’m numbed but blessed
(so they say, so they say)
Knees on the floor
But my rage doesn’t sway
If you’re there
Why am I
Breaking in my childhood bed?
Afraid to curse
Afraid that you’re already dead
[Bridge]
[Drop to clean guitar
Near-whisper vocal]
If you loved me
Why did they love their holy rules more?
Why was silence
The only answer when I hit the floor?
I keep your letters
Inked deep in my skin
But every verse
Just feels like giving in
[Build with drums and feedback]
I want to hate you
I want to hold you
I want to leave you
I want you to pull through
Tear out my throat
’til the doubt pours out
But the quiet comes back
Louder than my shouts
[Final Chorus]
I’m numbed but blessed
(choked on faith, choked on faith)
If you’re in the fire
Why am I the one you break?
If you’re there
Why am I
Begging like a dog for scraps?
I can’t let go
But you never answer back
I can’t let go
So I scream into the black

Hard emo / post-hardcore with male vocals, angular guitars in dropped tuning, and sharp start-stop drums. Verses sit on tense, palm‑muted riffs and dry, confessional vocals; choruses explode into wide chords, screamed harmonies, and crashing cymbals. Bridge dips to near-silence with spoken-word and distant feedback before a final, cathartic wall of sound and layered screams swallows everything., emo, post-hardcore, emotional