Figure It Out Yourself

I saw it coming like a slow train

Felt the cracks beneath my name

Held it in, played it cool

Till the weight broke every rule

I looked around for open hands

But they were busy building stands

They got their help when the light was right

Mine came down in the middle of night

Figure it out yourself — that’s what the silence said

When the ones I loved had already fled

Not out of hate, not out of spite

Just too worn down to join my fight

Figure it out yourself — when the timing’s wrong

And the pain’s been hiding all along

They healed when the world was kind

I broke when it left me behind

I don’t blame them, I see their scars

They were just trying to reach the stars

But I was stuck in the dirt and rain

Waiting for someone to name my pain

They had their moment, had their grace

I had shadows I couldn’t face

And when I finally said “I’m not okay”

The echo was all that stayed

It’s not their fault, it’s not mine

Healing don’t follow a perfect line

But I’m still here, still breathing slow

Learning what I didn’t know

Figure it out yourself — it’s a bitter phrase

But it taught me how to blaze

Through the dark, through the doubt

To find my voice and let it shout

Figure it out yourself — yeah, I did somehow

And I’m still standing now

Not with help, not with ease

But with truth that finally sees

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