Wished I listen

one of my biggest regrets in life is I wished that I listened more,

takin down notes and keeping my ears open you know just fully absorb,

wish I knew how to express my feelings, it’s so much shit kept inside that hurt me to my core, did so much for so many, they ask me for sum and I’m like “yea sure”,

then when it’s my turn to ask, they like “what for” its soo much shit I saw,

like how your allies turn to bad guys and how ya girl would look you in ya damn eyes and tell you some damn lies, even those who you call ya brother could snake you for the right prize, crazy cuz that came to my surprise, they can show you love but it’s really just hate and envy in a masked up disguise, once had my girl tell me we was 4L then 2 months later she sending me her goodbye’s hmm

then boom it hit me I came to a realization, that niggas and bitches really just gon say shit, whatever you wanna hear just so they get compensated, it’s many forms of compensation, just pick your poison, lookin back I thought it was me plus her forever but to her I wasn’t part of that equation, you know me I had to keep it cool Ion like debating, me and her still stayed friends tho I know, that’s a sticky situation, knowing her was a sin, I’m guilty just by association

it’s all good tho cuz it’s no love lost, I’m just pissed I confused love for lust, keep my heart tucked away now, that’s a must, it ain’t many I can trust, but the ones I do I just hope they really do give a fuck…