[Verse 1]
My Albanian ex so toxic
He won’t let me dress how I want
He checks my mirror, checks my phone
Turns my whole room into a cage
He says, “Don’t wear that, don’t go there”
Like my life is his to keep
I lace my shoes in the dark
And he still blocks every street
[Pre-Chorus]
I say, “Let me breathe”
He says, “Stay with me”
I say, “Let me live”
He pulls me back in
[Chorus]
So toxic, so toxic
You hurt me, then I miss you
So toxic, so toxic
I leave, then I come back to you
I know it’s wrong
I know it’s bad
Still I run to what we had
So toxic, so toxic
I love it, and I hate that
[Verse 2]
I’m not allowed to go work
He says the world is full of lies
I’m not allowed to go out
He wants my nights locked inside
But when his name lights up my screen
My heart jumps, then drops again
I swear I know what he does
Still I fold every time I bend
[Pre-Chorus]
I say, “Let me breathe”
He says, “Stay with me”
I say, “Let me live”
He pulls me back in
[Chorus]
So toxic, so toxic
You hurt me, then I miss you
So toxic, so toxic
I leave, then I come back to you
I know it’s wrong
I know it’s bad
Still I run to what we had
So toxic, so toxic
I love it, and I hate that
[Bridge]
Maybe I call it love
When it’s just bruised and loud
Maybe I want the storm
’Cause the silence scares me now
But I’m still mine
Even when I shake
One day I’ll choose the door
Before it’s too late
[Final Chorus]
So toxic, so toxic
You hurt me, then I miss you
So toxic, so toxic
I leave, then I come back to you
I know it’s wrong
I know it’s bad
Still I run to what we had
So toxic, so toxic
I love it, and I hate that