Head games

Trying to make my way to the top again really feeling like I’m building up blocks again in my mind. It’s no escape I’m really starting to box it in can’t even breathe loss of all oxygen.

In my head, trying to make myself think that I’m all complete.

Be up late at night laying in my bed trying to fall asleep.

Every thought in my head, full demons and bad dreams.

But I’m not tryna overthink wish I could paint the perfect picture and you mean it when you say I love the painting in that frame.

But I am not ok

My mind is racing my heart’s full of hatred.

I see your face then a rush of your fragrance.

I start too feel afraid so grabbed the grenade bitch

and I think to myself don’t pull the pin. I hate myself punished by my own revenge. i’ve tried to message, but can’t click send self sabotage like shooting up with somebody else’s syringe.

You were studying the flaws. Can you study the good instead?

Without your love, I have withdrawal now I’m lonely, in our bed

yeah I love up on these drugs. I have to fill my lungs with lead

Burn this flame at both ends it burns your picture out my head

And now I’m friends with Jack and Jim you can figure out the rest

And I’m glad that you’re doing good. I guess leaving me was for the best.