Broken Heart

Broken heart

I live with a broken heart

For must of my adulthood

For reasons that I can’t understand

To this day

I stop pointing fingers

I stop picking the pieces of

A puzzle I can’t put it together

I became a drug addicted

Thinking that was the only way, It will

Fixed the Devils inside of me

But they got worse.

Finding refuge in the arms of pretty

Women was the only exit I could think about it,

On the moments.

But at the end of every day

I have to gut my heart out

To easy the pain

I look at the mirror

I see a man that I hate with all my Guts

I want to destroy it

I want to eliminate him out of this Earth

But I believe in the Lord

My Faith kept me going

It is the reason I don’t

Take my life, to end my pain

I laughed, I cry, I scream

As loud as possible

When ever I could

I don’t care what people think

I Just want my Demons under control

I need them as much as I need my Angels

To Keep a balance

There are people on this Planet

That still need me alive

I gave my soul to My God

To watch over it

To control its anger

To easy my pain

To make a useful to the World

I don’t know my Purpose

I still searching for the reason

My Lord wants me here

Faces we see Hearts we don’t know

I am a Clown

To people, to the World

I walk with a Broken Heart

Every second of my life.