# Verse 1
Tired of all this pain I've caused myself
Tired of these bullshit excuses I make
Tired of putting off what matters most
But motivation's something I can't fake
Tired of frustration, tired of doubt
Tired of wishing someone would help out
The way I act now, I fucking hate myself
This ain't me—I swear—it's a disguise
## Chorus
I've let the old me go
Taken over by alter egos
Shaped by other people, now I'm numb
When I look in the mirror
I don't know who I've become
## Verse 2
Where's that inner child with dreams so bright?*(where am I?)*
Somewhere along the way I lost the fight
Neglected the death of who I should be*(sorry)*
Took his life away, mama's baby boy
No one would notice a cheap toy in his place
I can't stop regretting what I've done
Decisions I made when I was young
If I could rewind, I'd tell myself:
## Bridge 1
Don't let desire consume your goddamn soul
It'll tear you from the inside out
Rip your friends away, lock you in a cage
Stealing all your air until you fade *(oxygen,she took away)
In the end you'll find she never gave a shit
Quit giving pieces of yourself away
End up hollow, a shadow of yourself
I underestimated self-love's worth
## Verse 3
Hard to see the line between love and lust
Lost myself after the first embrace
Thought infatuation must be love
No time to think, you fit perfectly
But you wanted more than just me
And I couldn't bear it, couldn't face
The thought of ending everything I knew
Twenty years gone, still running through my mind*(running running running)*
## Bridge 2
I can't blame you for what we went through
I was selfish, confused, and so were you *(yea you too, shit..)*
Too young to see that I played the fool
But the difference was, I meant it true
Took love seriously, I still do*(really do)*
When I said "I love you," it wasn't light
## Verse 4
Tears have shown me what I should have known:
You can love someone with all you've got
Feels like fucking dying when it's unreturned*(unrequited)*
Can't force love back—it's there or it's not*(its not)*
Now love feels like a burden I can't bear
Eyes lachrymose, soul laid bare
## Verse 5
This bed I've made, don't want to lie alone
If the day ever comes that I have to go
Just know it was killing me being unable to hold
To hold you like I used to
Finding comfort in the things we went through
If I died would it kill you too
Cuz baby I wouldve traded the whole damn world for you
Yet I'm here alone wishing things were still what they used to
be
## Final Chorus
I've let the old me go*(oh)*
Taken over by alter egos
Shaped by other people, *(oh,oh)* now I'm numb
When I look in the mirror
I don't know who I've become
Now this pain I wear weighs me down
Can't stand this shit just who am I now
WORLDPATTERNZ
