there’s a fire in my eyes
but I’m not sure if it burns the same
the fading light
with every day
I remember my hopes like an impossible prize
my dreams and aspirations that I can no longer claim
they seem so distant now and just out of sight
I used to be so ambitious
but now I feel lonely
and far too empty
all I can hear are my helpless cries
almost vicious
all that fills me now is what drains me
like a fading shadow during sundown
a lost wish
a shattered dream
a broken promise
a faded photo worn beyond repair
no longer wanted
no longer needed
a fragile ghost
I keep the silence weighing in my chest
my voice is hollow
i yearn for guidance soft and true
a gentle whisper to lead my way through
I feel as though
no one understands
I’m afraid of how they’ll judge
my stomach churns
my mind never stops thinking
of every mistake I’ve ever made
on constant replay like a broken record
sharp, piercing through my soul that burns
of all the thoughts I have no one will ever know
hope and disappointment
love and hate
such a fine line
what’s behind haunts me
a terrifying echo of
memories I can’t out run
and what is ahead scares me
of what I might become
a dark and deep secret
waters untouchable
the present is like a surprise gone wrong
A throbbing tide with overwhelming waves
inside I feel so turbulent
like thunder and lightning
but on the outside I lie to seem alright
a smile always on my lips
my spirit neeeds an adjustment
my only desire
is to be calm
inside the fire
is slowly dying
flickering
It isn’t dead
but it’s barely living
is it true all clouds have a silver lining?
I still wake up
everyday with the smallest spark
enough to reignite a blazing fire
despite my fear
there is still a light in the dark
i wake up and think of the blessings I have
deep down a glimmer of hope lives In my soul
everyday my mind and heart are doomed for war
my brain wants to protect
my heart wants to love
logic and impulse
it makes me laugh
strength can only come with pain
wisdom with suffering of all I’ve known
love with courage where the spirit dwells
I know it was never going to be easy
but my tears are like hot salty rain
my tears fall too fast
resembling lost hope with every one
I don’t want to lose myself to
temporary pleasure
nothing comes without a consequence
my soul must continue on
my heart and mind will learn to work together
before I lose myself
in everything
my fire
my hope
all my dreams and desires
[Female Vocal]
TJ____
