Reflection

##Intro

*(Humming the melody of chorus)*

## Verse 1

Tired of all this pain I've caused myself

Tired of these bullshit excuses I make

Tired of putting off what matters most

But motivation's something I can't fake

Tired of frustration, tired of doubt

Tired of wishing someone would help out

The way I act now, I fucking hate myself

This ain't me—I swear—it's a disguise

## Chorus

I've let the old me go

Taken over by alter egos

Shaped by other people, now I'm numb

When I look in the mirror

I don't know who I've become

## Verse 2

Where's that inner child with dreams so bright?*(where am I?)*

Somewhere along the way I lost the fight

Neglected the death of who I should be*(sorry)*

Took his life away, mama's baby boy

No one would notice a cheap toy in his place

I can't stop regretting what I've done

Decisions I made when I was young

If I could rewind, I'd tell myself:

## Bridge 1

Don't let desire consume your goddamn soul

It'll tear you from the inside out

Rip your friends away, lock you in a cage

Stealing all your air until you fade *(oxygen,she took away)

In the end you'll find she never gave a shit

Quit giving pieces of yourself away

End up hollow, a shadow of yourself

I underestimated self-love's worth

## Verse 3

Hard to see the line between love and lust

Lost myself after the first embrace

Thought infatuation must be love

No time to think, you fit perfectly

But you wanted more than just me

And I couldn't bear it, couldn't face

The thought of ending everything I knew

Twenty years gone, still running through my mind*(running running running)*

## Bridge 2

I can't blame you for what we went through

I was selfish, confused, and so were you *(yea you too, shit..)*

Too young to see that I played the fool

But the difference was, I meant it true

Took love seriously, I still do*(really do)*

When I said "I love you," it wasn't light

## Verse 4

Tears have shown me what I should have known:

You can love someone with all you've got

Feels like fucking dying when it's unreturned*(unrequited)*

Can't force love back—it's there or it's not*(its not)*

Now love feels like a burden I can't bear

Eyes lachrymose, soul laid bare

## Verse 5

Out of everything, I hate love most

Always ends the same predictable way

Two separate gardens growing side by side

One bears apathy, one bears heartbreak

I remember days I could be alone

Hobbies I enjoyed shaped who I was

Now this pain I wear weighs me down

Can't stand this shit or how I appear

## Outro

This bed I've made, don't want to lie alone

Or die alone with no one by my side

When I look at my reflection now*(where)*

A stranger stares from hollow eyes*(where have I gone?)*

Not my mama's baby boy anymore

Just a ghost of potential, fading slow

## Final Chorus

I've let the old me go*(oh)*

Taken over by alter egos

Shaped by other people, *(oh,oh)* now I'm numb

When I look in the mirror

I don't know who I've become

Now this pain I wear weighs me down

Can't stand this shit or how I appear

## Outro

This bed I've made, don't want to lie alone

lie alone

Or die alone with no one by my side

When I look at my reflection now*(where)*

A stranger stares from hollow eyes*(where have I gone?)*

Not my mama's baby boy anymore

Just a ghost of potential, fading slow

## Final Chorus

I've let the old me go*(oh)*

Taken over by alter egos

Shaped by other people, *(oh,oh)* now I'm numb

When I look in the mirror

I don't know who I've become

Now this pain I wear weighs me down

Can't stand this shit or how I appear

## Outro

This bed I've made, don't want to lie alone

So Where's that inner child with dreams so bright?*(where am I?)*

Somewhere along the way I lost the fight

Neglected the death of who I should be*(sorry)*

Took his life away, mama's baby boy

No one would notice a cheap toy in his place

I've let the old me go*(oh)*

Taken over by alter egos

Shaped by other people, *(oh,oh)* now I'm numb

When I look in the mirror

I don't know who I've become

Now this pain I wear weighs me down

Can't stand this shit,just who am I now?

## Verse 5

Out of everything, I hate love most

Always ends the same predictable way

Two separate gardens growing side by side

One bears apathy, one bears heartbreak

I remember days I could be alone

Hobbies I enjoyed shaped who I was

Now this pain I wear weighs me down

Can't stand this shit. why can't you be here?

## Outro

This bed I've made, don't want to lie alone

Or die alone with no one by my side

When I look at my reflection now*(where)*

A stranger stares from hollow eyes*(where have I gone?)*

Not my mama's baby boy anymore

Just a ghost of potential, fading slow

## Final Chorus

I've let the old me go*(oh)*

Taken over by alter egos

Shaped by other people, *(oh,oh)* now I'm numb

When I look in the mirror

I don't know who I've become

Now this pain I wear weighs me down

Can't stand this shit,just who am I now?

## Outro

This bed I've made, don't want to lie alone, or die alone with no one by my side

Too scared to be alone yet loves a concept that I have yet to get quite right.

So please bear with me as I dig within myself to find the emotions that hide

If I ever said I could live without you just know I lied

I've let the old me go*(oh)*

Taken over by alter egos

Shaped by other people, *(oh,oh)* now I'm numb

When I look in the mirror

I don't know who I've become

Now this pain I wear weighs me down

Can't stand this shit,just who am I now?

## Outro

This bed I've made, don't want to lie alone

If the day ever comes that I have to go

Just know it was killing me being unable to hold

To hold you like I used to

Finding comfort in the things we went through

If I died would it kill you too

Cuz baby I wouldve traded the whole damn world for you

Yet I'm here alone wishing things were still what they used to

be