Obsession

Round and round the thoughts go.
Conclusions to questions that I already know.
Who can I trust?
Where can I go?
For all I know, it can all be part of a grand show. 

The overthinking pulls me in.
I’m stuck between the past and future…but where do I begin?
Rumination should be a sin.
To remove this trait would bring me joy and a wide grin. 

How do I stop?
Why won’t the thoughts leave? 
It’s trapping me in and now I can barely breathe. 
Past mistakes, dark memories, I need time to grieve.
But to stay stuck in this trance engulfs me with seethe. 

Break it down, analyze from all aspects and ways,
I can keep this charade up for many days.
For some peculiar reason, this gives warmth to my heart and introspect.
To value self-care demonstrates respect, of the mind, body, and soul…. why reject?
I must find a way to reduce this and eject.
So many beautiful memories and dreams I need to protect. 

I feel my mind at war with my inner conscious…leaving traction.  
My brain is split (black and white) like factions.
I feel the darkness creep in, so painful I feel the contractions. 

One must realize the impact of their words and actions,
for it breaks hearts and leaves them in fractions. 
Such a distraction. 
These qualities provide no action.
All it does is cause a brood which will impact your mood.
 The anger and envy will turn you green and make you rude. 
I am calling out to the thoughts in my head that have kept me trapped in my bed. 
STOP!!!
I am sending them into recession, finally breaking the curse of obsession.

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