New Life Same Past

Verse 1:

You ain’t never been inside a brain like mine,

Everybody saying that I’m gonna be fine,

Everybody telling me, “Relax, take your time,”

But I’m losing my head—yeah, I’m losing my mind.

If I wanna cry, that makes me weak? No spine?

Hate the person that I am, just wanna rewind.

Why’s it always those who give that get left behind?

So this is my sign ‘fore I leave it all behind.

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Chorus 1:

I’m falling, but I won’t stay down,

Trying to breathe while I struggle and drown.

I’ve been lost, but I’m finding my sound,

Gotta find a way to break these chains somehow

I’m crawling, but I won’t lose ground,

Holding on even when I break down.

I hear echoes, they’re calling me out—

I just need to find my way back now.

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Verse 2:

Don’t ask why I look this way—it’s hard to hide my depression.

Put in foster care at eight, dealt all kinds of rejection.

No one ever loved me—but they’re all fake, so it may be blessing.

But when I got put with a real fam then I made the connection.

Got a beast inside and I’m tryna suppress him,

But he’s right here if tho you guys wanna test him.

Trapped in the dark, still searching for direction.

Paranoid, so I ride with protection.

Ain’t gotta fit with the in-crowd.

I got a man in the mirror—that’s a friend now.

I’ve been talking to the devil, that’s a pen pal.

Yeah, I’m chill, but I’m reckless—I’m lil child

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Verse 3:

We all carry scars, but we learned how to mask it.

Built a bond out of pain, but we still feel the static.

We laugh through the cracks, but the wounds stay elastic.

Try to move on, but my past stayed tragic

We were all lost kids, just trying to fit in,

Hiding our bruises behind our fake grins

Thought love was real, but it felt so dang thin

Now I’m stuck between demons and long-lost friends.

We were all broken, but somehow we fit—

Different pieces, same puzzle, that’s the misfit clique.

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Chorus 2:

I’m falling, but I won’t stay down,

Trying to breathe while I struggle and drown.

I’ve been lost, but I’m finding my sound,

Gotta find a way to break these chain somehow

I’m crawling, but I won’t lose ground,

Holding on even when I break down.

I hear echoes, they’re calling me out

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I just need to find my way back now.

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Verse 4:

Now I’m staring at the ceiling, thinking back to the start,

How they pulled me from the chaos, but it tore me apart.

Left me searching for a home in a world so cold,

Trying to piece together stories that were never told.

Maybe love was just a word that I never defined.

Felt the warmth for a moment, but it never was mine.

So I write these lines just to free my mind,

Hoping one day I’ll finally leave the past behind