Ruining My Life

[Verse 1]
You text “you up?”
It’s 2:09
I hate that I still
Treat that like a sign
You say “come thru”
Uber at my door
I already know
What I’m begging for
[Pre-Chorus]
Every time I leave
I swear I’m done
Delete your name
Then I retype it
Tell myself I’m healing
Then you call
And I’m right back in your silence
[Chorus]
You keep ruining my life
And I keep handing you the knife
Cut me open just to watch me bleed a little
Say you’re sorry then you slide
Right back over to my side
Kiss my forehead
Then you twist me up the middle (ohh)
You keep ruining my life
And I keep letting you decide
[Verse 2]
Your hoodie still
Hangs on my chair
Smells like your perfume
I pretend it’s air
Friends say “block her”
I just laugh it off
Say I’m over you
Then my phone goes off
[Pre-Chorus]
Every red flag waving in my face
I turn my head
I call it timing
Call it fate
But it’s just your game
And I keep falling for the same thing
[Chorus]
You keep ruining my life
And I keep handing you the knife
Cut me open just to watch me bleed a little
Say you’re sorry then you slide
Right back over to my side
Kiss my forehead
Then you twist me up the middle (yeah)
You keep ruining my life
And I keep letting you decide
[Bridge]
You say “this time I’ll be different”
Same sheets
Same lies
Same distance
I could walk
I could save my soul
But you’re in my bed
And I’m losing control (ohh)
[Chorus]
You keep ruining my life
And I keep handing you the knife
Cut me open just to watch me bleed a little
Say you’re sorry then you slide
Right back over to my side
Kiss my forehead
Then you twist me up the middle
You keep ruining my life
And I keep letting you decide

Moody midtempo R&B with warm Rhodes, subby bass, and tight, swung drums; male vocals sit upfront, intimate and close-mic’d. Verses stay low and conversational; chorus blooms with stacked harmonies and airy pads. Subtle guitar licks answer vocal phrases, with a late-song vocal run and drop in instrumentation for emotional impact., r&b