God::lead me

I have shut off everything in my life other than you.

The proverbial “eggs in one basket” my thoughts of land, home, money, happiness were all thoughts with you in them.

Not one minute of the day would go by without thinking of you and what I could do to make you happy or smile.

[Hook soft vocal build up to strong] dear God, lead me in the right direction if I’m not supposed to be here let me walk away. if I am supposed to be here show me a reason to stay for I trust your way.

I prayed for us daily and spent lots of time being angry with God because i always seem to be at this same spot with you.

Never moving forward. It was frustrating me and made me look into myself daily. You would give me a little hope every now and then and it would keep me praying for more.

I’m not blaming you, I blurred the lines from the beginning.

I prayed for you or someone like you for so long that I thought God was answering my prayers by sending you and I think I put the weight of that on you.

I apologize for that. I fell in love with us and the fantasy of us that I continued to believe.

[Hook soft vocal build up to strong] dear God, lead me in the right direction if I’m not supposed to be here let me walk away. if I am supposed to be here show me a reason to stay for I trust your way.

What i failed to realize, is that God always has a plan, it’s usually not the plan we envision.

God put me in your life to support you, to be here if you need me, to help guide you on the bad days and praise you on the good days. His angel went rouge 🤷‍♂️and fell in love with you… then started EXPECTING you to act or feel the same. (There’s a lifetime Movie in here somewhere).

You do make me happy.

You make me smile.

You make my days better.

You taught me to open my heart.

You taught me it’s never too late to be happy.

You gave me time when i didn’t deserve it.

I love the Avengers and anything related to them now. 🤷‍♂️

[Hook soft vocal build up to strong] dear God, lead me in the right direction if I’m not supposed to be here let me walk away. if I am supposed to be here show me a reason to stay for I trust your way.

You have helped me make decisions in my life that I never would’ve made without you.

You have been the definition of “ supportive “

I allowed LOVE or the fantasy of US to blur the lines and stop me from being the support you need and deserve.

I keep thinking of what I told you in the beginning… “I’m here to make you happy and see that life can be better”.

Your Heart: you love being loved and the chaos that comes with it.

Your heart loves the beginning of relationships, the getting to know, the feeling of falling for someone, the attention you get from that makes your heart full and allows you to deal with any issues you face at home.

Your heart will only allow you to give certain things to the person you are with because anything more would be stepping outside of your marriage, then your heart would require you to be honest.