Unknown reason

In a crowd, I walk alone,

A silent storm beneath my bones.

Eyes that smile, but none can see,

The war that's tearing into me.

Tried to laugh, I played my part,

But the echo's cold inside my heart.

They reach for me, but I pull away,

I don’t know why I’m made this way.

I want to trust, I want to feel,

But everything just feels too real.

This pain, it hides, but never leaves,

A ghost that dances through my dreams.

I wanted light, I chased the sky,

But now I barely even try.

I’m the saddest soul you’ll ever meet,

Smiling faces, tired feet.

There’s an unknown reason, haunting me,

Dragging down what I could be.

I just want to run and break away,

But I’m stuck here in the darker way.

My friends, they knock on every door,

But I don’t answer, not anymore.

I fake the peace, I wear the mask,

But healing feels like too much to ask.

(Slow violin solo builds with a mournful piano melody. Faint echo of humming like a lullaby fading into a cry.)

I’m tired of me, I’m scared to move,

This life’s a puzzle I can’t prove.

But deep inside, I hold a flame,

Flickering, whispering my name…

I still want light, though I’m afraid,

To leave this road my fear has made.

If someday stars could show me grace,

Maybe I’ll find a safer place.

The unknown reason’s still not gone,

But maybe I can carry on.

I dream of peace, I dream of day…

Where I won't be stuck in the darker way.