UNREAL

I wash my hands and the sensations strange, i can feel the water, fading away. My arms are stretched out and it's like a dream. I look in the mirror, don't recognize who I see.

My body is floating and I got no pain, something outside me is pulling my strings,

Im outta control, can't feel my face. Trying to focus, just lost in the haze.

Derealization, everything is a lie, all I can feel is , nothing inside.

Im walking this earth to somebody's beat, I'm constantly walking with somebody's feet. I move in slow-motion, life looks like a screen, im dying inside and I'm trying to scream.

You won't understand how all of this feels, unless you've been here, where nothing is real. Time is soo distant ,the days are a blur, I'm making decisions, yet waiting my turn. How do i live, inside of my mind, when im in 3rd person, along for the ride.

Stuck in the static, all i feel is fear. Ride in this body, in a rear view mirror. What does this mean, for my mental health ,when I'm not even here, to help myself.

Lost in a world, trying to escape. set it on fire, and walk in the flames, yeah i'll set it a blaze, and end all the days, share all my pain, that's inside of my brain,

I'm walking inferno, waiting for rain. Wash blood off my hands and call me insaine. scrub it over and over, not washing the stain. trying to maintain.

I keep it inside, yet im screaming and screaming, fucking losing my mind in the lies that I weaving. Say that I'm fine and pretend that I'm breathing. It's only a matter of time, before I decide, im leaving.