The voice of sadness

A voice within me telling that I’m hurting with this strong pain inside of me breaking me apart slowly, blocking myself living a happy life and not saying to nobody that I’m hurting so badly inside my mind and spirit. I’m afraid to say that nothing  is not going  well, I’m afraid to say that I’m spiritually and mentally broken so hard to say to loves ones. I’m sad cause I don’t want nobody to treat me with sympathy and kindness I just want heard and guidance to my happier self. I put on a over myself, to say that I’m happy and fine to assure my friends and family that I’m doing fine but deeply within i  know that’s a lie. It’s not easy to explain how broken my heart is, and my spirit is broken too in so many pieces and not knowing how to put the pieces back together again. feeling like myself the happy And bright to bring smiles once again. I once heard family and friends are here to help get tough time but I feel that those words was to calm you down,  but everyday I have doubt about those words. they don’t hear me but they see my body language and aura. They always tell you tha  their here help you through tough times but they’re never there give the helping hand and assuring words. So I put this shield too block my emotions, assure myself that I don’t make friends and family worry about. Within this pain that I have in my spirit, I suffer in silence. If only someone or thing that can help get rid of this sadness, and bring back that happiness I dearly missed so many years ago

rock, male