[Verse 1]
You laugh like we’re the only two here
Then you turn your head and call his name
I hold my breath on the sidelines
Pretend this doesn’t burn the same
[Chorus]
It’s a special kind of hell
Watching you choose him
Every look
Every touch
Like a knife under my skin
I’m smiling in the crowd
While my world goes dim
It’s a special kind of hell
Watching you choose him
[Verse 2]
You ask me
“Do you like his new place?”
I nod quick
Stare into my glass
You don’t see the way my hands shake
When you tell me how you think he’ll last
[Chorus]
It’s a special kind of hell
Watching you choose him
Every look
Every touch
Like a knife under my skin
I’m cheering you on
While my hope grows thin
It’s a special kind of hell
Watching you choose him
[Bridge]
If I’d told you then
Would we be here now? (oh)
Or was I always meant
To fade into the crowd?
[Chorus]
It’s a special kind of hell
Watching you choose him
I say I’m doing fine
But I’m breaking from within
You’re dancing in the light
I’m learning how to swim
In this special kind of hell
Watching you choose him