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The morning bell rings through a dusty hallway

The lockers groan with secrets I once knew

I am sitting in the third row watching shadows

Wearing a younger skin that feels brand new

I see the chalkboard filled with old equations

The ink is wet upon my unlined hand

I carry decades like a heavy suitcase

Across the borders of this teenage land

I walk the streets that lead back to my doorstep

Avoiding paths where grief was bound to grow

I fix the cracks before the house can crumble

And stop the bitter winds that used to blow

I save the money and I shield the heartaches

I turn the wheel before the crash occurs

But in the silence of this polished kitchen

The clarity of purpose slowly blurs

Is it a miracle or just a murder

To kill the struggle that defined my name

If I erase the scars that mark the journey

The soul inside will never stay the same

I hold the map but lose the holy fire

The gold is bright but somehow feels so cold

I traded every gray hair for a promise

That I would never have a hand to hold

I look for faces that I haven't met yet

The children sleeping in a future ghost

If I rewrite the story of my failures

I lose the people that I love the most

Every mistake was a brick in the foundation

Every tear was a river to the sea

If I undo the knots of my frustration

I unravel every thread of you and me

I stand beneath the stadium lights at midnight

The air is thick with things I tried to change

My mother’s voice is calling from the window

But every syllable sounds sharp and strange

I miss the mess of living through the winter

The beauty of the things we couldn't save

I'd give this perfect youth to find the wreckage

And ride the wildness of a broken wave

[Chorus]Is it a miracle or just a murder

To kill the struggle that defined my name

If I erase the scars that mark the journey

The soul inside will never stay the same

I hold the map but lose the holy fire

The gold is bright but somehow feels so cold

I traded every gray hair for a promise

That I would never have a hand to hold