“Love and Envy”

Verse 1
If I’m drinking tonight
It ain’t just whiskey in this glass
I’m pouring alcohol on wounds
I’m trying hard to patch
If you see me holding tight
To a bottle by myself
Or talking to it like a friend
It’s asking for some help

Pre-Chorus
And I’m not crying
These tears ain’t falling from regret
They’re frozen feelings breaking loose
I ain’t thawed out yet

Chorus
Today I saw the love of my life
Happier than she’d ever been
Kissing the love of her life
The way she once kissed me back then
She looked at him the way
She used to look at me
That’s when I knew this war was over
And I lost her finally
They say she’s building dreams with him
A brand-new memory
If I said I hope she’s happy
Man, that’d be a lie from me
The truth is I still love her
But I envy him completely

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Verse 2
If somebody here tonight
Thinks they’ve had a bad day
Pull up that chair and listen close
To what I gotta say
’Cause heartbreak ain’t a rumor
When you watch it face to face
It’s seeing your forever
In somebody else’s place

Pre-Chorus
Yeah I’m still standing
But barely holding on
When the one you call your “always”
Is already gone

Chorus
Today I saw the love of my life
Happier than she’d ever been
Kissing the love of her life
Like I was never her “then”
She held him like she once did me
Like I was just a phase
That’s when I knew this fight was done
And I’d lost her anyway
They say she’s building dreams with him
A brand-new memory
If I said I hope she’s happy
That wouldn’t be the truth in me
’Cause I still love that woman
And I envy him completely

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Bridge (Soft / Emotional)
I raise this glass to letting go
Even if I can’t
To loving someone so damn much
You hate the better man

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Final Chorus (Stripped Down)
Yeah I saw the love of my life
In somebody else’s arms
And I swear I felt my whole world
Fall apart without a sound
If loving her means losing her
Then losing’s what I’ll be
’Cause I’ve got love left in my heart
And envy killing me

Outro
So if I’m drinking tonight
Just let me be
It ain’t the bottle I’m holding…
It’s what used to be.

Sad country song