The past 4 years

Verse 1
The past four years don’t feel that long,
But somehow everything went wrong.
August came, the air stood still,
That cancer took my dad’s will.
August 28th—god came took him away,
Left words in my chest I never got to say.

Then A month and two days, I had to face it again,
I had to say goodbye to my dog, my friend.
Bentley—ten years, my buddy, my pal,
From bottle-fed nights to right by my side.
Then came that September day life came and took you away.

Chorus (Hook)
Yeah the past four years been hell on me,
Took more than I thought I’d ever be.
From tears and smiles to a diamond ring,
To losing damn near everything.
Now I’m up at night, just asking god why,
I’m Trying to make it right with a broken life.
If I could turn around somehow…
I wouldn’t be where I’m at right now.

Verse 2
Then came a moment I still hold tight,
January ‘23, under that Cancun light.
I dropped to one knee, heart pounding in my chest,
Ya that day is still my best.
I can still see your tears, your smile so clear,
A moment and feeling I’ll never forget. 

For  7 years, we built a life, I was only 
7 months from calling you my wife.
But then that moment came and you walked away,
You Said you had nothing left to stay.
don’t know why I pushed you away and let you walk away.
I guess I didn’t know your worth ‘til you were gone on that October day.

Chorus (Hook)
Yeah the past four years been hell on me,
Took more than I thought I’d ever be.
From tears and smiles to a diamond ring,
To losing damn near everything.
Now I’m up at night, just asking god why,
I’m Trying to make it right with a broken life.
If I could turn around somehow…
I wouldn’t be where I’m at right now.

Bridge (stripped down / emotional peak)
Im truly glad that she’s happy now and found a way to move on,
But I still find myself stuck here trying to learn to live on and move on.

Life, I’m trying my best, to change, to grow,
But I still find the hardest thing is letting her go.

But then February came with a choice I made,
One wrong decision and everything I had made,
Lost my career, the badge I wore,
And the trust of people I cared for.

Sitting in that cell,
With nothing but time and my thoughts to dwell…
Every mistake, every regret,
Every good thing I managed to forget.

Final Chorus (slower, more hopeful edge)
Yeah the past four years done changed me,
I Ain’t the man I used to be.
I Lost it all, piece by piece,
Now I’m praying just to find some peace.
Lord If there’s a road back through the pain,
I’ll walk it slow through every rain…
‘Cause I know I’ve fallen far somehow,
But I ain’t done becoming better now.

Meaningful, emotional, country, slow to medium tempo